Head speaks from the heart:Dr. BLT: I take it that your daughter is very important part of your life.Head: Huge! Fathers and children need to connect, in a big way, A lot of problems that people develop can be traced to bad relationships with their fathers. I put an end to that in my family. Do you know what I mean?Dr. BLT: Yes.Head: I stood up for my kid, and I'm trying my best. I just want to be there for her. That's Bubba, by the way.(I was exceedingly grateful to have met, not only Brian's beloved daughter and parents, but now, the little cute stuffed little toy animal friend Jennea had been playfully interacting with.)Dr. BLT: How would you compare concert tours to this book tour?Head: It's not as wild, but its way more intimate and personal. I get to look in people's eyes. At a lot of the book signings, I've stood up and said, 'Hey, everybody, I'm here for you. If you have anything you'd like to share with me about your life, I'm not in any hurry," and I get to communicate with them like that, and it's cool. And I really care, in my heart and get very excited when people tell me about stuff about their lives and what's going on because God changed my heart. Before, it was all about getting people to buy CDs and stuff. Now, it's about changing lives. It's not about me anymore.Dr. BLT: Well, I must say, the book really touched my heart. Other than the fact that I'm not a rock star, and that I didn't get caught up in the whole drug scene, there was a lot that I could identify with in your life. There were a lot of parallels there. Do you miss being in the band, as a member of Korn?Head: I miss playing live, but I'm just going in such a completely different direction. I don't miss a lot of everything else except playing live, and I love those guys and miss them too.Dr. BLT: I wanted to talk to you about how you felt when you were playing music in the band. I'm sure you're as aware as everyone else that while the band expresses lots of different emotions through their music, a big emotion is anger. When you were playing in Korn, did you feel like you were releasing your anger, or that the music was actually intensifying it?Head: Well, we were getting drunk and partying and we were intensifying the rage through our music, It kept growing. The reason I'm saying that is because it didn't go away. It kept getting worse, throughout my life. I'm not blaming it on music, I'm just blaming it on everything in my life---with the selfish way I was living, the anger just kept building. I now have music that's just as angry and intense-sounding, but I now channeled through a different source. So, I wouldn't blame anything on the music.Dr BLT: In your book, you talk about your father's anger, and your experience with that. When you rediscovered God, and you rediscovered Jesus, in a very personal and intimate way, did you have a hard time with reflecting on your life with your earthy father, and not projecting that onto your experience with your heavenly father, and not experiencing some of those same feelings in response to your heavenly father?Head: That's a great question. I immediately understood that God forgave everything, and I did some jacked-up stuff---stuff that isn't in the book---stuff that happened behind closed doors that nobody knew, but God and me. For him to love me like that, and to feel his spirit just love me like that----I just knew that it was unconditional. But at the same time, when the suffering came, though we're supposed to go through suffering with Jesus, in order to become like him. But I thought he was mad at me during those times, so I struggled with that. I had yelling matches with God, as it says in the book.Dr. BLT: Well, the Bible says we are to go to the throne of grace with confidence, but it can be hard to feel that confidence if that isn't something you experienced with your earthly father. But I understand that you've gone through a healing process in your relationship with your father, as I have with mine.Head: Yeah, and they're (referring to his parents whom I had the pleasure of meeting earlier) with me now, and it's been awesome.Dr. BLT: Let's talk about the drugs, and especially, the meth. How did the meth affect your mood and your self-esteem?Head: Well, it would lead me to have uncontrollable fits of rage and it would lead me to become evil.Dr. BLT: Do you think that the meth goes beyond bringing out that which is already in a person, and actually produces behaviors that would not have been produced apart from the drug.Head: Yes, definitely.Dr. BLT: Has acquiring lost of fame and lots of money caused you to doubt the motives of people that claim to want to get to know you better or to become your friend?Head: No, I used to actually be more suspicious of people's motives. Since I've found God, people like that just seem to drop out---to go away on their own.Dr. BLT: How do you go about balancing your work-related responsibilities and career aspirations, and your responsibilities as a father.Head: Well, it's always Jennea first. She comes first and has to be taken care of.(At that point, he glanced at her, and they lovingly locked eyes. There was an unmistakable, beautiful father-daughter bond there that momentarily made us all forget that we were in the midst of an interview).Although this was a defining moment in the interview, we did move on to talk about his musical endeavors, and his musical career direction, with his efforts now focusing on a solo career, and a CD of brand new Brian "Head" Welch songs in the works that should be hitting shelves by next August. That should be exciting.Then I asked him this:Dr. BLT: What has God been revealing to you while you've been on this book tour?Brian: He's revealed that I need to do everything, not in my own strength. On the first two nights of the book tour, I only got a couple of hours of sleep, and so it was really hard to function. But as I began to draw upon God's strength, it became much easier.Understanding that combining God's strength with a good night's rest to prepare for the next day was probably even better than relying upon God's strength minus sufficient rest, I wanted to give Brian some time to wind down after what I'm sure had been a very long, if glorious day. Thankfully, he had taken the time to answer all of my questions, so I didn't have to cut the interview short.For more information go to: www.headtochrist.com/